I miss having friends. you know, people that you hang out with and GO and do fun things with... or even people you can really talk with. I miss having fun. I have a few friends at school who arent really that fascinating and all they do is drool over guys and gossip about other girls. it's disgusting. Can't we ever actually have a real conversation about anything??? I wish I were surrounded by people who were really close friends. or just being surrounded by anyone would work. Since I only go to school for half the day, I feel isolated. Because I havent been to youth group in over a month, I am isolated. Not to mention an outcast of the youth group click. once you stop going, the people have nothing in common with you anymore so they cease to speak with you. That and their stupid worrying that there must be something wrong with me if i'm not coming to church. sigh. shut up Rachel. go back to youth group and stop making fool presumtions about people that you know arent true. once you get back into the swing of things, you'll be just fine and everything will be just dandy. hah. i believe the first part but not the second. not everything in life is easy. duh. what a lame statement. hardly anything worth anything is easy to achieve. So, alas, this friday night i will once more re enter the clickish lives of Those Who Attend Youth Group. I still wish i had a real friend though, now that mine has faded away. Thank the Lord I've still got Him though. I'd be lost without him.