Growth

I am overwhelmed by the love in my life.
It's flowing from every corner of my world, from my Rock and my Confidant, from every person that is close to me.
I can't possibly deserve it..but I don't know, I guess that's what love is. I've had such a difficult week, I'm emotionally exhausted but my heart feels like it's swelling to capacity right now. I've grown so much this week, I've learned more about myself, God, and my relationships in such a short period of time. I can't even explain what God means to me right now, but I am closer to him now than I have been in years. I am seeking him and waiting on him, following his lead for my life. I'm trusting him utterly and completely, down to the very essence of who I am in him. I'm growing and I'm trusting, and he is proving himself faithful, to a point which I have never experienced before. I am fulfilled in him, in every essence of the word. There is a quote from moulin rouge, "The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return." I'm actually thinking that might be true. Love is greater than most people give it credit for, they cheapen it by creating different societal definitions. But for me, the kind of love I'm seeking to give and to receive is the love that is true and pure. "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails."

1 corinthians 13:4-8

God IS love. He is all I need and this love is what I'm striving for.