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Disclaimer: I'm tired and my whole body aches, so I'm not in the best of moods. Read at your own risk.

What is it with me and friends? I keep them for so long and then they either leave me, lose interest, or drift away. Am I needy? Am I boring? Am I self righteous? Do I smell bad? It's probably nothing personal. Maybe they think the same thing about me: "Rachel doesn't seem to care anymore, and I don't really either, so why bother keeping up?" I DO care. For me, it's one of three cases. One: I wasn't that close to them in the first place, so I honestly don't care that they don't talk to me anymore. Two: They've replaced me with other people in their lives, which implies that they didn't think as highly of our friendship as I did. I could have been a really great friend if they had stopped and put any amount of effort into really getting to know me. But, as they don't seem to care, I just let them move on. I understand and I'm not hurt because I know that's just the way they work. Three: By golly, people seem to care about me as much as I care about them! This has happened in, oh...three cases lately?
I wish there were a site for finding friends, just like there is for finding dates. I've tried my hardest, Church? No go. School? Triple no go. People seem to only want an acquaintance kind of thing. Work? Hmm...don't have a job right now. I'm tired. Without people around me, I rely on introversion. I only concentrate on myself, my problems, my life, my future, etc. I'm so dang SICK of myself!! If only I could shut myself up on occasion. Here I am, writing about myself too. I'm too tired to keep writing. I need to sleep.

Does anyone else have this problem? It appears that everyone is completely happy, but that's just through facebook, so who knows what's really going on in your lives.